Unfinished.

These last couple of days have been days of reflection for me. I really am beginning to enjoy blogging. The idea of putting an idea out there for people to read intrigues me. On top of that it seems to help me to sort out my problems. I have a problem dealing with hard situations and I almost always bottle them up.

Tonight, for the first time in a while, I want to cry. I want to sit here in my bed and sob all night long. I want to shed tears for Wade, Haley, Carmen, Pat, Ruth, Robert, Molly. Anyone I have ever lost in my life. At the same time I want to live for Wade, Haley, and Molly. They lost the chance to live and I feel like I should catch hold of life and live it as fully as possible. The problem is that I am afraid. I am afraid of living. We all are. Some of us face it head on with courage and strength and others cower in fear and live in the shadows. I am ready to emerge from the shadows fighting head on. I want to be seen. I want to be strong. I want to be an inspiration. Not only to myself but to other people also. I want to be the light that guides someone through a difficult patch.

The Lateness of the Night

This is just me reaching out to the world. Don't leave what you can do today for tomorrow. A great saying. I'm going to point out something else true with this. That is about procrastinating. About anything. What I want you to think about is how you are procrastinating with the happiness you could have in your life. If you choose to do something, do it because you truly desire to. I am begging this of you. You do not know what tomorrow holds. That chance that you take today could make a world of difference for you for the rest of your life. I wonder if my cousin, Wade, had and regrets because he chose to not do something. He will never know and neither will I because he died in a drunk driving accident. For some reason, he has been in my mind for the last week or two. His life has helped to change mine.


LIVE FOR TODAY.


Not tomorrow.

Summer Loving.

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I love it when the flowers start to bloom! They are so beautiful. Today one of my best friends (Megan) came up to UNI to spend time with me and my other best friend Lauren. We had a fun photo shoot! The weather is perfect right now. It makes me want to live outside!

The University of Northern Iowa has such a beautiful campus! I do not regret my choice to come up here at all! The only problem I have is during the winter and that is only because it is so cold!

My friend Megan just got the cutest haircut and I got a great picture! I swear that sometimes she could be America's Next Top Model!

On another note, I am discovering a new sense of fashion. I feel like a flower child! I'm loving it! I love shirts that flow and are really light! My friend Lauren got some good ones (I think!).

Have a great day everyone!